Struggles of a Foster Mom...

Wow!! What an amazing journey this foster parenting has been!!! Exhausting, invigorating, stressful, rewarding, painful, wonderful, full of love and concern... They dump massive amounts of information on you over an 8 week training period and it isn't enough!! I mean, it totally helps to have their incredible support as you muddle through piles of paperwork, crazy emotions, system failings... They cannot prepare you for the great love you have for these precious kids, that your protective mothering wants NOTHING less then the VERY best for them. It has been hard. My knees are worn out from crying out to the Father on their behalf. I know too much, yet, I know too little. I am scared that I haven't been able to do enough! I don't want them to go...my precious boys...yet, they will go. "God fill in the gaps, sooth hurting hearts, prepare us, protect these boys even when I can't...I KNOW you love them far greater than I can and that they were/still are in our home by Your design. I choose to trust them to Your PERFECTLY capable hands!!! Please help me to rest in You alone."